Something I wish I could improve is appreciating myself. I'm not saying that I dislike myself or anything like that, I just wish that I could learn to like the parts of me that I don't think are so great. I think it would be absolutely wonderful to spend a day seeing myself from someone else's point of view. Because various people tell me all the time how great I am and good things about me that I can't seem to see in myself. I think it would be really eye opening. Don't get me wrong, I'm not going to sit here and complain about everything I don't like about myself or try to fish for compliments. Because that is not what I'm doing at all. I'm just saying that I really want to work on my self perception and self-esteem. I don't think I can think of one person who accepts every single thing about themselves and sees it all as ok. I just wish I could for once get to see what other people see in me.
I feel like a hypocrite for saying this now, after everything I just wrote, but I also wish that some people around me could see what I see in them and understand that I truly mean everything that I say about them. Especially the people in my life that I am most open and honest and close to. Believe me, I would not say nice things about you if I truly didn't mean them. And in that case, we probably wouldn't be friends if I didn't have nice things to say about you.
I think that everyone needs someone to tell them how wonderful they are because sometimes you might lose sight of that. Everyone needs someone there when they are doubting themselves to tell them that they are great. Sometimes I do things that I wish I could change or do differently or something that I'm not proud of. And it's at times like these that I need someone to tell me that I'm still me and they know how fantastic I am.
I titled this post with a quote from The Perks of Being a Wallflower (my favorite book btwww). I like this quote because it is saying that you only get as much as you are willing to give yourself. If you don't even love yourself then you can't expect anyone else to love you, partly because you won't be able to accept their love because you don't think you are worth it. I guess I'm saying that I want to be able to fully accept myself so that eventually I can accept someone else's nice thoughts of me. And for anyone reading this, maybe think about all the reasons why you are wonderful and why other people like you. So the next time someone gives you a compliment, instead of saying how it isn't true, just accept it and reflect on why they like that about you.
Love me or hate me,
Molly :)
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